Tuesday, July 10, 2012
So today...
So yesterday there wasn't anything to eat for lunch, so I ordered a pizza. My mom's always complaining about how I spend too much money, and yeah, pizza wasn't cheap - but if I eat two slices for my meal, and there are 12 slices in a pizza, then what - each meal is about ~$3-$4? That's not bad.
So I went out last night, and today I find out that everyone in my family ate the pizza. So of course, if I spend $20 on a pizza and it only lasts me one meal, then yeah, of course it's expensive. So naturally, I ask my aunt to reimburse me, and she tells me to go take it up with my mom. So I'm thinking I should drop the subject...
But then my aunt and mom got to talking and she mentions me, so my mom confronts me, and yeah, I state how I think I should be reimbursed for the pizza. So then she goes on a rant, basically how I'm already loathing in the house, so I don't have the right to ask for money back.
So now I'm feeling that my self worth is pretty low. Anyway, fast forward an hour later, and I'm in bed. I'm not sick nor tired, I just... I really like my bed. Or I really like my bed room. When I'm at my computer, my mom yells at me for wasting time. When I'm here or there, I'm always getting bombarded by requests, then by looks of unworthiness. But in my bed, I'm pretty safe. My mom comes into my bed room and she smiles and laughs a little, as if nothing was wrong. Meanwhile I'm still feeling pretty pissed that she called me a worthless person earlier.
So for the past two hours I was in my bed, sorta just, thinking to myself. I wasn't really tired, or sick, or anything. I just wrapped myself in my blanket, and thought to myself. I then realized... well, I'm not sure if I want to write about that right now. I've just had different ideas float through my head for the past few months - although the feeling has subsided for the past few months - but I keep thinking what the best way to go about it is. And I realized... well, I really like this bed.
I was thinking I could stay in bed the whole day. That's what I thought, during the past two hours. I could get out of bed, and do some work, or play some xbox, or surf the internet and waste time. I could watch Masterchef which I taped last night, I can watch American Ninja Warrior which I taped last night. Or maybe, just maybe, I'll just stay in this bed. I have everything I need right here - just me, my imagination, pillow, and blanket. I'm just missing Internet, but maybe that's just overrated.
Anyhoo, enough about that for now. Nobody really reads this blog, so maybe it's okay that I write in it. So yeah, for the next little while, maybe this blog will take a new direction. Or not. Chances are I'll just write something very similar to the previous post, again soon. Or not. I'm not really good at keeping this blog the way I want it.
Anyway. So if others can eat my pizza without paying for it.. I dunno. Maybe I should go and raid the fridge. Eat a whole tub of icecream by myself or something. Now that I am up, I did write this blog entry, and maybe I will watch ANW and Masterchef.
So yesterday there wasn't anything to eat for lunch, so I ordered a pizza. My mom's always complaining about how I spend too much money, and yeah, pizza wasn't cheap - but if I eat two slices for my meal, and there are 12 slices in a pizza, then what - each meal is about ~$3-$4? That's not bad.
So I went out last night, and today I find out that everyone in my family ate the pizza. So of course, if I spend $20 on a pizza and it only lasts me one meal, then yeah, of course it's expensive. So naturally, I ask my aunt to reimburse me, and she tells me to go take it up with my mom. So I'm thinking I should drop the subject...
But then my aunt and mom got to talking and she mentions me, so my mom confronts me, and yeah, I state how I think I should be reimbursed for the pizza. So then she goes on a rant, basically how I'm already loathing in the house, so I don't have the right to ask for money back.
So now I'm feeling that my self worth is pretty low. Anyway, fast forward an hour later, and I'm in bed. I'm not sick nor tired, I just... I really like my bed. Or I really like my bed room. When I'm at my computer, my mom yells at me for wasting time. When I'm here or there, I'm always getting bombarded by requests, then by looks of unworthiness. But in my bed, I'm pretty safe. My mom comes into my bed room and she smiles and laughs a little, as if nothing was wrong. Meanwhile I'm still feeling pretty pissed that she called me a worthless person earlier.
So for the past two hours I was in my bed, sorta just, thinking to myself. I wasn't really tired, or sick, or anything. I just wrapped myself in my blanket, and thought to myself. I then realized... well, I'm not sure if I want to write about that right now. I've just had different ideas float through my head for the past few months - although the feeling has subsided for the past few months - but I keep thinking what the best way to go about it is. And I realized... well, I really like this bed.
I was thinking I could stay in bed the whole day. That's what I thought, during the past two hours. I could get out of bed, and do some work, or play some xbox, or surf the internet and waste time. I could watch Masterchef which I taped last night, I can watch American Ninja Warrior which I taped last night. Or maybe, just maybe, I'll just stay in this bed. I have everything I need right here - just me, my imagination, pillow, and blanket. I'm just missing Internet, but maybe that's just overrated.
Anyhoo, enough about that for now. Nobody really reads this blog, so maybe it's okay that I write in it. So yeah, for the next little while, maybe this blog will take a new direction. Or not. Chances are I'll just write something very similar to the previous post, again soon. Or not. I'm not really good at keeping this blog the way I want it.
Anyway. So if others can eat my pizza without paying for it.. I dunno. Maybe I should go and raid the fridge. Eat a whole tub of icecream by myself or something. Now that I am up, I did write this blog entry, and maybe I will watch ANW and Masterchef.
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