Friday, November 30, 2007
Bao is stuck at Cheese Station C
Well, that WOW discussion was interesting to say the least. Anyway, enough about that for now, but you can keep commenting on that down there. But for now, let's discuss Bao again. I just counted, about 28 different things about Bao, get ready for a long read. But first, two musical offerings, but zeroeth, let's try this:
If I did it right, this link scrolls to the bottom of this post so you can click here and then on comments instead of scrolling down.
Anyway, my ftp wasn't working, but now it is, but whatever - so some of the text in the next few paragraphs refers to before I found out of the ftp problem, after I found out about the problem, and after the problem has resolved.... so now here are both the songs and links to youtube videos. So, to make this blog post pretty, let's talk about Bao again. But first, two musical offerings:
Nada Surf - Popular | (YouTube link) - Let's pretend, 1990-1992, heard this song at Amish's house on MuchMusic. March 1997 comes along, I download this song. I like this song. According to my principles though, I shouldn't like this song. Cheap lyrics, a lot of guitars and drums, not very melodic... but for some reason, I like this song. Maybe it's a sentimental, nostalgic thing. It's one of my secret guilty pleasures.
T.A.T.U. - Everything She Said | (YouTube link)- Another one of my guilty pleasures... T.A.T.U. is a group of two females, I think they're 17-18 now, maybe even 16, but this song is maybe 2 years old or more, so.. they were kinda young back then. I think they're from London/UK. And they might be lesbians with each other. Anyway, the song's about them loving each other yet they're being confused by society and how they want them to act, so they're torn. I like the song, the girls are cute (yet young...o_O) and the video has some nice rain and kissing girls (yet young... o_O). So this is another guilty pleasure... I'm not sure if TATU is popular or taboo or something among social circles, so I feel it's a guilty pleasure.
Now, this is where David downloads the T.A.T.U. song and looks it up on youtube (I wrote most of this before today, so before I figured out my ftp stopped working), cuz he's interested in seeing the video, but not for the kissing girls. This is where David listens to Nada Surf for a few seconds before turning it off, cuz it's not his thing. And now he reads this and listens to it a bit more just to turn it off later again. Not sure if he'll like the TATU song, but maybe he'll like the themes of the song/video.
So now Ray is smirking at the "(yet young... o_O)" comments with phrases like "....okay then" and "that's questionable". And this is where some people download the Nada Surf thing, but they don't comment on it because it isn't spectacularly... special or anything.
Anyway, here is a shorter version of the T.A.T.U song, shorter by about a minute (also - the other song is taken from the video, this is my edited version so it's easier to listen to and easier to loop over and over and over.
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So.. about Bao... in no particular order... Bao is making people happy. For example, on this very blog, Bao writes to specific people - like David and Ray above. Like I said, I like showing people stuff, things they might like. So in picking that TATU song as one of my guilty pleasures, I describe in such a way that might be appealing to David specifically, so that David is more likely to download it and listen to it and see the video.
::edit:: - here's the video! (again, wrote this before finding out... but on another note, I have this video in higher mpeg quality, but why would you need it? It's just girls... kissing... *shifty eyes*)
A few days ago I made that advertisement for the weekend with Rama, and one of my last points was that WZ's War Buddy would come, who was Mitch. This was targeted at Wen, in efforts to make him come, and it was also effectively targeting David, although he has never met Mitch but he would like to meet him. So Bao brings attention to different people...
Bao is... selfish. Well, no, but all that stuff I just said, Bao brings attention to different people... hah, somewhat true, but all in all, it would've been more fun for me if Wen and David came to the Rama thing. So there are ulterior motives to what Bao does, but many things are not full of ulterior motive... or are they? dun dun dun....
Bao is opportunist and clingy. Suppose Wen was coming for the weekend, coming Friday night. What is Bao's ideal situation? Wen brings a bunch of girls and we have a wild time. bwahaha. No, I mean... well, Bao would deem this as a special occasion, so Bao would try to invite a lot of people. We would go out to eat and enjoy ourselves. Lastly, Wen would go home late on Sunday. That is, Bao is clingy - Wen is a good thing, so that when Wen comes, the longer he stays, the better it is.
Lately, not as much, I mean, lately I've been fine with letting people go, but ideally it'd be nice if people stay as long as possible, and thus we get more fun out of presence. PART of it is because when everyone's gone home, it's just me and duy left, which means Duy goes back to WOW and I continue to want to have fun as if other people were still here. But, the longer they stay, the more fun it is.
How often has David or Jia stayed over night because I somehow convince them to stay longer, and then when it gets too late for driving or busing, they defaultly stay over? Sometimes Jia stays over Sunday night and then we go to work on Monday and he's still at our house! Well, I like company, I like people staying over. It is an opportunity to spend more time with people, and thus I cling onto them to make the moment last as long as possible.
Bao is easily bored and goes through phases. I like variety. I cannot play the same game over and over, I need change and different games. I don't enjoy doing exercises over and over too, I need variety and different exercises. I might have this great idea to do so much exercise, and after the first week I'll give up and want to try something different (not this time though, although I've been taking more breaks).
Bao likes all types of music and all types of movies, as well as all types of food. Is that bad? No, I think it's good to be well-rounded, know both sides of the argument, and always be open to new things. With the food thing, like at mandarin, I like to put all my foods together so all the flavours mix together. I'm crazy like that. So, anyway, I don't discriminate against different types of music, I can see some good in every different style... I think.
Bao saves best for last, and has things against obstacles. Rice is boring. Not rice is fun! Meat beats most vegetables. Noodles beat rice. So if Bao had a bowl of rice, with some noodles, some meats and some vegetables, most of the rice will be eaten first with a bit of meat on some of the spoons. After most of the rice is gone, the rest of the dish would be pure awesomeness - all good things. Sometimes my brain has a problem with that, it's like, I'm filling myself with awesome stuff and not enough rice - so I fill the bowl with more rice, and a little bit more good stuff, and then I eat the rice again. And then I'm left with explosions of tastes at the end.
Vinh? He eats all the good stuff first, and at the end every spoonful is just rice. Normal people? Every spoonful will be equal parts of everything.
Obstacle foods are weird... obstacle foods are those that usually make me slow, or I've had trouble with in the past. Sometimes I'd be eating noodles at a Pho restaurant (the non-soup one, the vermicelli) and I would add some hot sauce in the corner, just for kick. Now, I would look at my bowl and see that the hot sauce is an obstacle. It is keeping you from enjoying the rest of the bowl. So instead of mixing it and eating it all around, I would pretty much try to get rid of the corner of hot sauce first before going back to the rest of the meal. It's like, if I don't eat it now, it will bug me later in the future.
Beer in a pub. There's a pitcher of beer, everyone gets an equal amount. Beer, or drinks in general, are an obstacle for me. Sure, I like it, whatever, but I don't want to be the slowest drinker. I used to be a slow beer drinker, and it feels like I would be wasting it if I didn't drink it - so it's a thing I have to do, which is an obstacle. So the other day, I know Mitch likes to drink, so at all times, my beer cup would have less beer than he had, so that if we all of a sudden had an earthquake and we had to leave, then I would be able to finish my beer (hopefully) and not be the last one.
(the problem is that when your beer is empty, someone magically fills it back up unless you say a serious "no, no thanks")
Bao is a bloggy statistic. I am now keeping a journal of everything I'm eating, but this was true before the journal. I wanted to write in the journal as close to as possible, so in beer drinking, I wanted to drink a certain amount of beer. 1 glass, 1.5 glasses, 2 glasses, something easy that I could remember. Turns out I put down 2.2, which means I failed being a bloggy statistic... hmm... I did eat 2 slices of pizza and 1 minipiece, and 5 chicken wings the other day, so I was able to write that down.
Bao accumulates. Bao accumulates a lot of stuff and doesn't throw a lot of stuff away. It's becoming a problem since it's becoming messy, both in real life and on the computer. But I guess it's not too bad... sometimes I do like a clean desk space, but in those times I just push everything away into a closet or some nook and cranny; I'm sure we still have lots of room, haha.
Bao doesn't believe in motivational speeches and religion. The religion is a touchy subject, but basically I'm atheist. Parents are not (Buddha, and then there's Feng Shui, etc), I don't believe in a god, etc. I just wanted to point that out. And I'm not one to listen to or read books that motivate you or are supposed to give you self-help or whatever... I don't believe in them. I used to not believe in hypnotism, but since Frosh in 2000, I have :P
Bao is wasting time. Aww... so as I said in my ramble about Wen, I have less restrictions right now, which means I should be spending my time better. I don't mean, I'm blogging right now instead of working, although that is part of it... I am part of my parents' company - we admit, we're pretty well off, if my parents didn't care so much I could probably just stay home all day and play games and that would be okay.
So it's like I'm on Christmas vacation, but I'm not doing anything. I SHOULD be doing things, but I'm not. The sense of urgency isn't really there... I always say I should do something, but it turns out we never do it. Hmm... on a related note, yesterday (Tuesday) my mom went on a sorta mission to get us to different things, so long story short, I read "Who Moved My Cheese" by Dr. Spencer Johnson. Good read, in my opinion, very quick and highly recommended. Am I contradicting my previous point about self-help books? Yes, yes I am, kind of. It's a good story though, should take an hour to read. Will I do anything different in my life? Umm... I'll try, probably.....
Bao is childish when angry. Bao is overly defensive too. I think it's a defense mechanism, I become really childish and I make a lot of noise and throw a lot of things around. I do seek the attention, and I do want to spread negativity through the air. I become obsessive and I make weird remarks that might not be true. I might swear in such a way so that people notice, and if I get in trouble, well, so be it. I really don't care at that point.
However, it's been a while since I've hold a grudge. That is, I get angry, then go to sleep, and then later on it's like I'm not angry anymore and I find it takes energy to keep the grudge and make people around me negative again. So it's been a while.
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Bao hates bad episodes at the beginning of good serieses. I was just talking to David and he somehow saw an Episode 2 of Gankutsuou, and he didn't like it, and now he says he's quitting the whole series.. he said it in such a way that it sounded like there was no way he would watch another episode. It's like episode 2 was Kill Bill 1... I'm going to have to be honest now - when David said that, after me talking about how David would really like Gankutsuou, and how I love Gankutsuou - well, he pretty much said it in a way that made Gankutsuou really bad. Well, honestly - I just wanted to fucking swear at David. It's like he totally insulted my very favourite anime (next to FMA), and with no regard. I'm awaiting a reply from him about the topic, but as is, at the very moment (I'm writing this before I'm receiving the reply, and I'm not changing it after, so... here ya go, here's another instant moment in the life of Bao, before correction).
So as is, I felt like saying "fuck off" David, you insult my favourite anime like that, don't bother coming over and watching other animes here, you're not welcome. This goes back to the previous point where I become childish and overly defensive - I almost found myself begging David to give Gankutsuou another chance, which I think is rare from me. Maybe I still like to think I'm trying to nurture David into watching things, and Gankutsuou is as good of a thing as any. Now, this will be hard to discuss because only Wen and I (and Jason) have actually seen much of Gankutsuou, and now I strongly urge other people to watch it too. Anime Marathon anyone? Heh.
But ... well, I feel like giving spoilers, but I won't, but I see so many things about Gankutsuou that I can relate to David, which is why... blah blah blah... anyway, now David responded twice; his first response was unsatisfactory, he generalized the whole anime by saying that he won't like 25% of the episodes, which is complete bullshit. His second response was okay, it basically agreed with everything I said, which means we agree with each other, which is why I think he should watch more. Oh well, his sudden "talk" of Gankutsuou, albeit negative, has gotten me to watch Gankutsuou from episode 3 onward again... Alan, wanna join me? Although we still need to finish 2 episodes of "24" :P
So, back to the topic... Bao dislikes bad early episodes in good series. Azumanga 3 felt out of place; Gankutsuou 2 was bad, and now that I've watched 3... well, it was okay, except for a couple parts were also out of place; I disliked the pace of Firefly 1 and the content of Firefly 3, but then again the introduction of reavers IS important so episode 3 is important, yet I still don't like the content.
(after 45 minutes) - okay, I lied, I didn't watch Gankutsuou episode 4. Instead, I watched 15 and 16... heh. Okay, so maybe David doesn't have to watch all of Gankutsuou, but I'd like him to fast forward to episode 15 and 16. Those are, in fact, some of my favourite episodes (and episode 17 and 21, but for now just episode 15 then 16 will do). David will miss a lot of backstory and character stuff, but I think he said he likes jumping into the middle of a movie or series without so much baggage and information from previous episodes. So, I think it'll be okay if he agrees to watch episode 15, but the climax comes in episode 17, and... I guess the second half of 18 is quite spectacular too. But I digress.
This is my one wish for David, to watch episode 15... although I showed him most of episode 15 already. Oh well. I somehow want him to see ep 17 too, the first half, but...
Bao is desensitized. I hear that word a lot, but basically, by watching and seeing so much stuff in movies and internet, Bao is quite desensitized - almost nothing is too violent or gruesome or sexual for Bao. At the same time, Bao likes things that are intriguing or extreme. If desensitization has made everything milder, then more extreme stuff would be good, just like how people like spicier and spicier foods. Bobobo and Elfen Lied come to mind. Elfen Lied was particularly violent, which is why Wen was put off it right away by the first episode, but in later talks he understood why I liked it and how I can like it - Elfen Lied triggered particular emotional reactions, which is "spicy" to me. Like that part when the tough warrior guy spun around and hit that girl in the face - I felt something from that scene, and although it was quite negative, it's almost a reason to watch. That makes me sound really negative, as if I enjoy seeing some innocent girl (who had her whole life ahead of her and maybe would go home to a happy family) get hit in the face and now her whole life is ruined... which I don't.
Family Guy is also sometimes very disturbing, sexually and violently. Sometimes it's quite very wrong still, but I guess I'm desensitized to it. And on another note, I hear from my coworkers that there's this viral video going out labeled "2 girls 1 cup" which, they promise me, will ____ me, although I still believe I will be desensitized enough to not notice it. After talking about it for a while, I have a general idea of what is happening in the video, but my brain says I'll be ready for it, but my coworkers say I won't.
That said, you know that commercial where that chef gets into an accident in the kitchen? The first time I watched that commercial, man, that was rough! I felt really bad, and it felt like I would not want to watch the commercial ever again because it was so traumatic. But now... well, I don't enjoy the commercial, I think it's very well done, but I'm no longer traumatized by it (for lack of a better word).
Bao is not concise. Haha. That is, Bao is informative, and he likes to give out enough info to get his point out. In an effort to influence someone, it would make sense to always provide more info, right? If I don't give enough info, one might disagree with me, or think I'm dumb, or misinterpret what I'm saying if I don't clarify it over and over with new words and more angles around the story, right?
Additionally, for example, in the WOW post; I entered a comment, and since it was just a comment, it shouldn't be too long, so I said my spiel about Click #, #, #, and then I knew that someone would, obviously, compare WOW's gameplay to other games' gameplay, and try to argue that WOW's is the same or better than that gameplay... so now that someone did, it kinda looks like an oversight on my part, as if I didn't bother to talk about that part, which, I think, makes me look less intelligent. So in most cases, I prefer to be as informative as possible.
Bao is at work now, and listening to Gankutsuou (specifically, eps 15, 16, 17, 21). So as you all know, one of my unique things that I do is I listen to movies. I also listen to anime and commercials, and I am comfortable listening to a 30-second clip on repeat for dozens of minutes or couple of hours. In watching things over and over, I associate what I hear to what I've seen, and now I can pretty much watch a lot of movies or anime by just listening to them. And when you listen to something instead of watching it, you can be much more productive, like I am now, heh, writing in my blog.
Similarly, listening to soundtracks also brings up scenes from movies and anime. Which brings me to my next point.. Bao is easily distracted. If I'm deep into something, like writing this blog entry, while listening to Gankutsuou, it'll probably be fine. But if you want me to be distracted for 5 minutes, and thus lose productivity for 5 minutes (and in turn, possibly more) here's a secret weapon: Put on Bao's recording of the first time he beat Freebird on expert on Guitar Hero II. Bao will stop working, and listen to freebird, remember the mistakes and star power paths he used, and move his fingers along with the notes as his brain re-imagines them flowing down. It's such a wonderful memory, first time beating that last epic song, that Bao just stops doing everything else and replays that moment in his mind.
Bao thinks people are people and most have good in them. BRB, gonna listen to some freebird...
ahh, I was interrupted, had to do some brainstorming at work. So... this is a short point, but everyone has something against famous celebrities like Britney Spears and Paris Hilton. I think they're people, and... long story short, they're not so bad. Okay, so Britney has fallen, FAR, but I'm hoping she gets better. And Paris is born into royalty and richness, so when people say she doesn't deserve all her fame, or she has all her fame from that leaked sex video... well, sometimes I actually feel sorry for her when people badmouth her. Yadda yadda yadda...
Bao gives second chances. Or, more cliché-ish, Bao doesn't like ignorant people or people who are quick to judge. Needless to say, if I judged the entire Gankutsuou by Episode 2 or entire Firefly by episode 1, then I wouldn't love them the way I love them today. At one point I hated Initial D, since I didn't start from the beginning and I just thought it was stupid, but then I gave it a chance from the beginning and I love it now.
Also, people put a lot of weight on first impressions, and I try not to do that as much. It's still important; if a network wants me to start watching a new show, then they better make it awesome within the first two episodes, or, if it's a lesser title, the first episode has to be awesome or else it's not replacing any time slots. But if a person doesn't have a stellar first impression, I wouldn't judge them too harshly.
Bao can't understand or doesn't like... umm... well, I told this story before, but once I offered the german guy Jan some chicken, and when he saw it, he changed his mind, because the chicken had "too many bones" - it's one fricken bone! AGHH!! I can't wrap my head around it. It's chicken, usually chicken comes with one bone. Actually, unlike fish, the single bone in the drumstick actually makes the chicken better! A drumstick wouldn't be a drumstick without a bone, like a rib without a bone is just a piece of meat. I digress - but it's just one non-intrusive bone, and that's why you won't eat the chicken? That's craaazzzyyy!!!
And then the other day, there's that show Phenomenon on TV, about illusionists and magicians competing to be the best on live TV - so this is episode 2, and one of the hosts does one of his 'magic' tricks. He had the solar system up, and he put some planets on there with the names, and then he said "pick a planet" and then you start with another planet, and clockwise-y you spell out the letters, and then you end up at another planet, etc.. etc... and then after a while of eliminating planets, he says "now I know what planet you are on... you are... on... VENUS!!" And then the crowd went crazy wild, like, it was the most amazing psychic thing EVER! And in my mind, I was like, "noooo!!! Don't applaud!! This is stupid!! It's been done a billion times before, all planets end up on Venus!! This is retarded!! Stop encouraging him, this was so stupid!!" ARGH!!!
Bao hates bones and seeds. This one doesn't really need explaining. I like chicken bones, chicken wings, ribs... I hate fish bones, and I hate seeds in orange-type fruits and grapes. I dislike watermelon seeds, so I'm glad they researched seedless watermelons. That reminds me, I'll probably post some Jerry Seinfeld audio clips next week, so look forward to that.
... ack! People can hear the music I'm listening to! My headphones aren't awesome enough... or, I should use both ears. Anyway, Bao is a bit... secretive. Hah, on this blog I'm not being so secretive, but otherwise... well, I'm listening to Freebird now, a badly played freebird, so if anyone asks questions I have to through the motions of explaining what I'm listening to. If I'm listening to a movie, that's also weird. If I'm listening to TATU or some other weird song, I feel like I'm being judged. If I'm listening to Red Hot Chili Peppers, it's probably okay; Britney Spears, maybe not so great - teenagers listen to Britney Spears, not older people. And so on.
Bao separates. I try to keep work and play and, nowadays and since ever, blog separate. With the WOW update, in my mind it was getting a bit... ugly. My arguments were getting weaker, and it felt like people were attacking me, or, were attacking my arguments pretty well, and since most of it was against the arguments/me, it.. whatever. Anyway, in real life though, or on msn, I don't talk about WOW. It's like, the arguments and attacks are isolated to my blog, and I don't want to bring them up in real life because the attacks would be there too, and it just makes for an unpleasant time.
So there's a bit of ignorancy at play. I'm ignoring these arguments on my blog in real life, pretending they just apply to the blog and not in real life, or whatever. Then again, things from real life make it onto the blog.. as it should be... oh well, whatever. Additionally, sometimes my parents ask "what is Ambrose doing? What does Ray do at work?" And apart from "financial economic something" and "project manager", we... don't really know... I guess we don't really talk about it. We sometimes do, but then we don't retain the information. Hmm...
Bao hates some generalizations. I absolutely hate it when for example, Duy is doing something bad, and my dad says "you kids are doing something bad" - they always do that, they generalize all the kids into one lump, so whenever someone does something bad, they blame all the kids, which really makes me angry.
Bao uses some kind of balance system. If Bao eats unhealthy food, Bao feels bad. But if Bao does exercise, then he would say "I have +1 in health" so now I am justifying "-1 in food". It's pretty bad, because then my body stays the same, so it's been happening less but I'd be lying if I said I stopped doing that. Similarly, if my parents are "grounding" us with "you can play only 1 hour a day", then everytime I play 1 hour a day and Duy plays 6 hours a day, I think of me getting +1 on following parents' orders.
And in return? I "expect" that, if I it ever gets to that, I can use it as leverage, and get something good out of it. So if my parents need one of us to vacuum the living room, then hopefully they'll pick him because I have +points. Sometimes I volunteer to do it for additional +points. Anyway, I haven't done much 'tattle-taling' in a while, or ever, but in my mind those +points are still there and they might become necessary in the future.
So am I, like all sibling groups, in the battle for "best child" award? Well, secretly, yes, I am. Unfortunately, I think I have to do something more than get +points by doing chores and playing limited amount of hours... I'm working on it... or am I? bwahahaha...
Bao is decisively tact and tactless. Sometimes I use tact and be nice, sometimes I feel that the use of tact is too flowery and unimportant. I don't usually care much for things like "You can do it" or "Don't worry, I know it'll turn out well in the end", but sometimes I still end up using them, but I still feel they are empty. Also, sometimes I feel that's why I don't care for self-help books. If a book or audio tape just tells me "that I have potential", uhh... yeah, that doesn't help me much.
Bao is... needy. This is one of my faults... deals with clingy, deals with childish, deals with influential bao. I try not to be needy, except when I'm childish, which means I'm angry. Actually, you can almost ignore this point because I said it in my "angry = childish" argument, if you associate needy with childish.
Bao will update in precisely 27 minutes. Okay, Bao likes being precise; some people find it odd. I would note things like, I came into work at 9:57 - instead of 9:55 or 10:00 or something. I just like doing it, it makes things a bit more interesting. Another thing I like to do is tell people that I will be ready in 6 minutes, or 11 minutes, or something. Once again, the preciseness, but more importantly... because it shows I've thought about it, and I'm trying to be truthful.
One of the things I don't like is when people use "5 minutes", "10 minutes", "20 minutes", "30 minutes", things like that. 5 minutes, IS NOT 5 minutes. 5 minutes is a generic answer that means "short", but it can be anywhere between 3 minutes and 30 minutes. 5 minutes is a thoughtless answer, and it has such a wide range that it's pretty meaningless. When I say "6 minutes", it sounds genuine, like I thought about it and it would probably take 5-8 minutes. Nobody has ever said 5 minutes and gotten 5 minutes out of it.
Bao is confusely hypocritical. I'm just writing this here before someone else says it, since I've written a lot of things (in this blog post and previous blog posts) so several points tend to overlap. Maybe I'm ignorant to WOW's combat system, yet I stated that I hate ignorance. That sort of hypocriticism might be found...
Bao wants... out. You know what I always thought about doing? I thought about moving out, for at least a little while. Like how Brian Griffin did, he just packed up and left. I don't think I'll do anything special... I will just live by myself, eat and cook for myself, perhaps meet new people... if I could find a job, that'd be great, but I would also just like to have, like, a 6-month vacation. My mind says I will work out more since I have more time, but... I may or may not have TV or Xbox360... well, I probably would, but I won't have HD channels and all that. I would probably be doing a lot of programming or flash programming during these 6 months... that's what I'd like to do. Right now, with all the pressure to keep going to work, then come home and play games... well, there's not much time for me, me-myself-alone time.
What's keeping me from taking this vacation? Well, pressure of working and all that. Maybe I'll ask my parents about it one day... I wonder what they'll say. They'll probably like the idea of me living alone, not sure if the "doing nothing" thing will work.. I can say I will exercise and find myself and program, but... well, we'll seeee...
And... I guess that's it! FOR NOW.... so, now you and I both know a bunch of my strengths and weaknesses and quirks. And it's been helpful writing things, getting some things into the open, and writing about my faults. However, unlike influential Bao, I didn't learn that much about me when writing this. However, now that I know my faults more, I know what I have* to fix.
have*? Why? Why do I have to fix them? Do I get free candy to fix them? Well, I guess the ideal is that a person is perfect, and in order to move the actual closer to the ideal, a person has to get rid of their weaknesses and negative activities. Logically, a better person would live a better life. And I'd like to live a better life... so... umm... "we'll see".
... I think I just realized something, regarding to "Who Moved My Cheese." David might be moldy cheese.
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If I did it right, this link scrolls to the bottom of this post so you can click here and then on comments instead of scrolling down.
Anyway, my ftp wasn't working, but now it is, but whatever - so some of the text in the next few paragraphs refers to before I found out of the ftp problem, after I found out about the problem, and after the problem has resolved.... so now here are both the songs and links to youtube videos. So, to make this blog post pretty, let's talk about Bao again. But first, two musical offerings:
Nada Surf - Popular | (YouTube link) - Let's pretend, 1990-1992, heard this song at Amish's house on MuchMusic. March 1997 comes along, I download this song. I like this song. According to my principles though, I shouldn't like this song. Cheap lyrics, a lot of guitars and drums, not very melodic... but for some reason, I like this song. Maybe it's a sentimental, nostalgic thing. It's one of my secret guilty pleasures.
T.A.T.U. - Everything She Said | (YouTube link)- Another one of my guilty pleasures... T.A.T.U. is a group of two females, I think they're 17-18 now, maybe even 16, but this song is maybe 2 years old or more, so.. they were kinda young back then. I think they're from London/UK. And they might be lesbians with each other. Anyway, the song's about them loving each other yet they're being confused by society and how they want them to act, so they're torn. I like the song, the girls are cute (yet young...o_O) and the video has some nice rain and kissing girls (yet young... o_O). So this is another guilty pleasure... I'm not sure if TATU is popular or taboo or something among social circles, so I feel it's a guilty pleasure.
Now, this is where David downloads the T.A.T.U. song and looks it up on youtube (I wrote most of this before today, so before I figured out my ftp stopped working), cuz he's interested in seeing the video, but not for the kissing girls. This is where David listens to Nada Surf for a few seconds before turning it off, cuz it's not his thing. And now he reads this and listens to it a bit more just to turn it off later again. Not sure if he'll like the TATU song, but maybe he'll like the themes of the song/video.
So now Ray is smirking at the "(yet young... o_O)" comments with phrases like "....okay then" and "that's questionable". And this is where some people download the Nada Surf thing, but they don't comment on it because it isn't spectacularly... special or anything.
Anyway, here is a shorter version of the T.A.T.U song, shorter by about a minute (also - the other song is taken from the video, this is my edited version so it's easier to listen to and easier to loop over and over and over.
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So.. about Bao... in no particular order... Bao is making people happy. For example, on this very blog, Bao writes to specific people - like David and Ray above. Like I said, I like showing people stuff, things they might like. So in picking that TATU song as one of my guilty pleasures, I describe in such a way that might be appealing to David specifically, so that David is more likely to download it and listen to it and see the video.
::edit:: - here's the video! (again, wrote this before finding out... but on another note, I have this video in higher mpeg quality, but why would you need it? It's just girls... kissing... *shifty eyes*)
A few days ago I made that advertisement for the weekend with Rama, and one of my last points was that WZ's War Buddy would come, who was Mitch. This was targeted at Wen, in efforts to make him come, and it was also effectively targeting David, although he has never met Mitch but he would like to meet him. So Bao brings attention to different people...
Bao is... selfish. Well, no, but all that stuff I just said, Bao brings attention to different people... hah, somewhat true, but all in all, it would've been more fun for me if Wen and David came to the Rama thing. So there are ulterior motives to what Bao does, but many things are not full of ulterior motive... or are they? dun dun dun....
Bao is opportunist and clingy. Suppose Wen was coming for the weekend, coming Friday night. What is Bao's ideal situation? Wen brings a bunch of girls and we have a wild time. bwahaha. No, I mean... well, Bao would deem this as a special occasion, so Bao would try to invite a lot of people. We would go out to eat and enjoy ourselves. Lastly, Wen would go home late on Sunday. That is, Bao is clingy - Wen is a good thing, so that when Wen comes, the longer he stays, the better it is.
Lately, not as much, I mean, lately I've been fine with letting people go, but ideally it'd be nice if people stay as long as possible, and thus we get more fun out of presence. PART of it is because when everyone's gone home, it's just me and duy left, which means Duy goes back to WOW and I continue to want to have fun as if other people were still here. But, the longer they stay, the more fun it is.
How often has David or Jia stayed over night because I somehow convince them to stay longer, and then when it gets too late for driving or busing, they defaultly stay over? Sometimes Jia stays over Sunday night and then we go to work on Monday and he's still at our house! Well, I like company, I like people staying over. It is an opportunity to spend more time with people, and thus I cling onto them to make the moment last as long as possible.
Bao is easily bored and goes through phases. I like variety. I cannot play the same game over and over, I need change and different games. I don't enjoy doing exercises over and over too, I need variety and different exercises. I might have this great idea to do so much exercise, and after the first week I'll give up and want to try something different (not this time though, although I've been taking more breaks).
Bao likes all types of music and all types of movies, as well as all types of food. Is that bad? No, I think it's good to be well-rounded, know both sides of the argument, and always be open to new things. With the food thing, like at mandarin, I like to put all my foods together so all the flavours mix together. I'm crazy like that. So, anyway, I don't discriminate against different types of music, I can see some good in every different style... I think.
Bao saves best for last, and has things against obstacles. Rice is boring. Not rice is fun! Meat beats most vegetables. Noodles beat rice. So if Bao had a bowl of rice, with some noodles, some meats and some vegetables, most of the rice will be eaten first with a bit of meat on some of the spoons. After most of the rice is gone, the rest of the dish would be pure awesomeness - all good things. Sometimes my brain has a problem with that, it's like, I'm filling myself with awesome stuff and not enough rice - so I fill the bowl with more rice, and a little bit more good stuff, and then I eat the rice again. And then I'm left with explosions of tastes at the end.
Vinh? He eats all the good stuff first, and at the end every spoonful is just rice. Normal people? Every spoonful will be equal parts of everything.
Obstacle foods are weird... obstacle foods are those that usually make me slow, or I've had trouble with in the past. Sometimes I'd be eating noodles at a Pho restaurant (the non-soup one, the vermicelli) and I would add some hot sauce in the corner, just for kick. Now, I would look at my bowl and see that the hot sauce is an obstacle. It is keeping you from enjoying the rest of the bowl. So instead of mixing it and eating it all around, I would pretty much try to get rid of the corner of hot sauce first before going back to the rest of the meal. It's like, if I don't eat it now, it will bug me later in the future.
Beer in a pub. There's a pitcher of beer, everyone gets an equal amount. Beer, or drinks in general, are an obstacle for me. Sure, I like it, whatever, but I don't want to be the slowest drinker. I used to be a slow beer drinker, and it feels like I would be wasting it if I didn't drink it - so it's a thing I have to do, which is an obstacle. So the other day, I know Mitch likes to drink, so at all times, my beer cup would have less beer than he had, so that if we all of a sudden had an earthquake and we had to leave, then I would be able to finish my beer (hopefully) and not be the last one.
(the problem is that when your beer is empty, someone magically fills it back up unless you say a serious "no, no thanks")
Bao is a bloggy statistic. I am now keeping a journal of everything I'm eating, but this was true before the journal. I wanted to write in the journal as close to as possible, so in beer drinking, I wanted to drink a certain amount of beer. 1 glass, 1.5 glasses, 2 glasses, something easy that I could remember. Turns out I put down 2.2, which means I failed being a bloggy statistic... hmm... I did eat 2 slices of pizza and 1 minipiece, and 5 chicken wings the other day, so I was able to write that down.
Bao accumulates. Bao accumulates a lot of stuff and doesn't throw a lot of stuff away. It's becoming a problem since it's becoming messy, both in real life and on the computer. But I guess it's not too bad... sometimes I do like a clean desk space, but in those times I just push everything away into a closet or some nook and cranny; I'm sure we still have lots of room, haha.
Bao doesn't believe in motivational speeches and religion. The religion is a touchy subject, but basically I'm atheist. Parents are not (Buddha, and then there's Feng Shui, etc), I don't believe in a god, etc. I just wanted to point that out. And I'm not one to listen to or read books that motivate you or are supposed to give you self-help or whatever... I don't believe in them. I used to not believe in hypnotism, but since Frosh in 2000, I have :P
Bao is wasting time. Aww... so as I said in my ramble about Wen, I have less restrictions right now, which means I should be spending my time better. I don't mean, I'm blogging right now instead of working, although that is part of it... I am part of my parents' company - we admit, we're pretty well off, if my parents didn't care so much I could probably just stay home all day and play games and that would be okay.
So it's like I'm on Christmas vacation, but I'm not doing anything. I SHOULD be doing things, but I'm not. The sense of urgency isn't really there... I always say I should do something, but it turns out we never do it. Hmm... on a related note, yesterday (Tuesday) my mom went on a sorta mission to get us to different things, so long story short, I read "Who Moved My Cheese" by Dr. Spencer Johnson. Good read, in my opinion, very quick and highly recommended. Am I contradicting my previous point about self-help books? Yes, yes I am, kind of. It's a good story though, should take an hour to read. Will I do anything different in my life? Umm... I'll try, probably.....
Bao is childish when angry. Bao is overly defensive too. I think it's a defense mechanism, I become really childish and I make a lot of noise and throw a lot of things around. I do seek the attention, and I do want to spread negativity through the air. I become obsessive and I make weird remarks that might not be true. I might swear in such a way so that people notice, and if I get in trouble, well, so be it. I really don't care at that point.
However, it's been a while since I've hold a grudge. That is, I get angry, then go to sleep, and then later on it's like I'm not angry anymore and I find it takes energy to keep the grudge and make people around me negative again. So it's been a while.
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Bao hates bad episodes at the beginning of good serieses. I was just talking to David and he somehow saw an Episode 2 of Gankutsuou, and he didn't like it, and now he says he's quitting the whole series.. he said it in such a way that it sounded like there was no way he would watch another episode. It's like episode 2 was Kill Bill 1... I'm going to have to be honest now - when David said that, after me talking about how David would really like Gankutsuou, and how I love Gankutsuou - well, he pretty much said it in a way that made Gankutsuou really bad. Well, honestly - I just wanted to fucking swear at David. It's like he totally insulted my very favourite anime (next to FMA), and with no regard. I'm awaiting a reply from him about the topic, but as is, at the very moment (I'm writing this before I'm receiving the reply, and I'm not changing it after, so... here ya go, here's another instant moment in the life of Bao, before correction).
So as is, I felt like saying "fuck off" David, you insult my favourite anime like that, don't bother coming over and watching other animes here, you're not welcome. This goes back to the previous point where I become childish and overly defensive - I almost found myself begging David to give Gankutsuou another chance, which I think is rare from me. Maybe I still like to think I'm trying to nurture David into watching things, and Gankutsuou is as good of a thing as any. Now, this will be hard to discuss because only Wen and I (and Jason) have actually seen much of Gankutsuou, and now I strongly urge other people to watch it too. Anime Marathon anyone? Heh.
But ... well, I feel like giving spoilers, but I won't, but I see so many things about Gankutsuou that I can relate to David, which is why... blah blah blah... anyway, now David responded twice; his first response was unsatisfactory, he generalized the whole anime by saying that he won't like 25% of the episodes, which is complete bullshit. His second response was okay, it basically agreed with everything I said, which means we agree with each other, which is why I think he should watch more. Oh well, his sudden "talk" of Gankutsuou, albeit negative, has gotten me to watch Gankutsuou from episode 3 onward again... Alan, wanna join me? Although we still need to finish 2 episodes of "24" :P
So, back to the topic... Bao dislikes bad early episodes in good series. Azumanga 3 felt out of place; Gankutsuou 2 was bad, and now that I've watched 3... well, it was okay, except for a couple parts were also out of place; I disliked the pace of Firefly 1 and the content of Firefly 3, but then again the introduction of reavers IS important so episode 3 is important, yet I still don't like the content.
(after 45 minutes) - okay, I lied, I didn't watch Gankutsuou episode 4. Instead, I watched 15 and 16... heh. Okay, so maybe David doesn't have to watch all of Gankutsuou, but I'd like him to fast forward to episode 15 and 16. Those are, in fact, some of my favourite episodes (and episode 17 and 21, but for now just episode 15 then 16 will do). David will miss a lot of backstory and character stuff, but I think he said he likes jumping into the middle of a movie or series without so much baggage and information from previous episodes. So, I think it'll be okay if he agrees to watch episode 15, but the climax comes in episode 17, and... I guess the second half of 18 is quite spectacular too. But I digress.
This is my one wish for David, to watch episode 15... although I showed him most of episode 15 already. Oh well. I somehow want him to see ep 17 too, the first half, but...
Bao is desensitized. I hear that word a lot, but basically, by watching and seeing so much stuff in movies and internet, Bao is quite desensitized - almost nothing is too violent or gruesome or sexual for Bao. At the same time, Bao likes things that are intriguing or extreme. If desensitization has made everything milder, then more extreme stuff would be good, just like how people like spicier and spicier foods. Bobobo and Elfen Lied come to mind. Elfen Lied was particularly violent, which is why Wen was put off it right away by the first episode, but in later talks he understood why I liked it and how I can like it - Elfen Lied triggered particular emotional reactions, which is "spicy" to me. Like that part when the tough warrior guy spun around and hit that girl in the face - I felt something from that scene, and although it was quite negative, it's almost a reason to watch. That makes me sound really negative, as if I enjoy seeing some innocent girl (who had her whole life ahead of her and maybe would go home to a happy family) get hit in the face and now her whole life is ruined... which I don't.
Family Guy is also sometimes very disturbing, sexually and violently. Sometimes it's quite very wrong still, but I guess I'm desensitized to it. And on another note, I hear from my coworkers that there's this viral video going out labeled "2 girls 1 cup" which, they promise me, will ____ me, although I still believe I will be desensitized enough to not notice it. After talking about it for a while, I have a general idea of what is happening in the video, but my brain says I'll be ready for it, but my coworkers say I won't.
That said, you know that commercial where that chef gets into an accident in the kitchen? The first time I watched that commercial, man, that was rough! I felt really bad, and it felt like I would not want to watch the commercial ever again because it was so traumatic. But now... well, I don't enjoy the commercial, I think it's very well done, but I'm no longer traumatized by it (for lack of a better word).
Bao is not concise. Haha. That is, Bao is informative, and he likes to give out enough info to get his point out. In an effort to influence someone, it would make sense to always provide more info, right? If I don't give enough info, one might disagree with me, or think I'm dumb, or misinterpret what I'm saying if I don't clarify it over and over with new words and more angles around the story, right?
Additionally, for example, in the WOW post; I entered a comment, and since it was just a comment, it shouldn't be too long, so I said my spiel about Click #, #, #, and then I knew that someone would, obviously, compare WOW's gameplay to other games' gameplay, and try to argue that WOW's is the same or better than that gameplay... so now that someone did, it kinda looks like an oversight on my part, as if I didn't bother to talk about that part, which, I think, makes me look less intelligent. So in most cases, I prefer to be as informative as possible.
Bao is at work now, and listening to Gankutsuou (specifically, eps 15, 16, 17, 21). So as you all know, one of my unique things that I do is I listen to movies. I also listen to anime and commercials, and I am comfortable listening to a 30-second clip on repeat for dozens of minutes or couple of hours. In watching things over and over, I associate what I hear to what I've seen, and now I can pretty much watch a lot of movies or anime by just listening to them. And when you listen to something instead of watching it, you can be much more productive, like I am now, heh, writing in my blog.
Similarly, listening to soundtracks also brings up scenes from movies and anime. Which brings me to my next point.. Bao is easily distracted. If I'm deep into something, like writing this blog entry, while listening to Gankutsuou, it'll probably be fine. But if you want me to be distracted for 5 minutes, and thus lose productivity for 5 minutes (and in turn, possibly more) here's a secret weapon: Put on Bao's recording of the first time he beat Freebird on expert on Guitar Hero II. Bao will stop working, and listen to freebird, remember the mistakes and star power paths he used, and move his fingers along with the notes as his brain re-imagines them flowing down. It's such a wonderful memory, first time beating that last epic song, that Bao just stops doing everything else and replays that moment in his mind.
Bao thinks people are people and most have good in them. BRB, gonna listen to some freebird...
ahh, I was interrupted, had to do some brainstorming at work. So... this is a short point, but everyone has something against famous celebrities like Britney Spears and Paris Hilton. I think they're people, and... long story short, they're not so bad. Okay, so Britney has fallen, FAR, but I'm hoping she gets better. And Paris is born into royalty and richness, so when people say she doesn't deserve all her fame, or she has all her fame from that leaked sex video... well, sometimes I actually feel sorry for her when people badmouth her. Yadda yadda yadda...
Bao gives second chances. Or, more cliché-ish, Bao doesn't like ignorant people or people who are quick to judge. Needless to say, if I judged the entire Gankutsuou by Episode 2 or entire Firefly by episode 1, then I wouldn't love them the way I love them today. At one point I hated Initial D, since I didn't start from the beginning and I just thought it was stupid, but then I gave it a chance from the beginning and I love it now.
Also, people put a lot of weight on first impressions, and I try not to do that as much. It's still important; if a network wants me to start watching a new show, then they better make it awesome within the first two episodes, or, if it's a lesser title, the first episode has to be awesome or else it's not replacing any time slots. But if a person doesn't have a stellar first impression, I wouldn't judge them too harshly.
Bao can't understand or doesn't like... umm... well, I told this story before, but once I offered the german guy Jan some chicken, and when he saw it, he changed his mind, because the chicken had "too many bones" - it's one fricken bone! AGHH!! I can't wrap my head around it. It's chicken, usually chicken comes with one bone. Actually, unlike fish, the single bone in the drumstick actually makes the chicken better! A drumstick wouldn't be a drumstick without a bone, like a rib without a bone is just a piece of meat. I digress - but it's just one non-intrusive bone, and that's why you won't eat the chicken? That's craaazzzyyy!!!
And then the other day, there's that show Phenomenon on TV, about illusionists and magicians competing to be the best on live TV - so this is episode 2, and one of the hosts does one of his 'magic' tricks. He had the solar system up, and he put some planets on there with the names, and then he said "pick a planet" and then you start with another planet, and clockwise-y you spell out the letters, and then you end up at another planet, etc.. etc... and then after a while of eliminating planets, he says "now I know what planet you are on... you are... on... VENUS!!" And then the crowd went crazy wild, like, it was the most amazing psychic thing EVER! And in my mind, I was like, "noooo!!! Don't applaud!! This is stupid!! It's been done a billion times before, all planets end up on Venus!! This is retarded!! Stop encouraging him, this was so stupid!!" ARGH!!!
Bao hates bones and seeds. This one doesn't really need explaining. I like chicken bones, chicken wings, ribs... I hate fish bones, and I hate seeds in orange-type fruits and grapes. I dislike watermelon seeds, so I'm glad they researched seedless watermelons. That reminds me, I'll probably post some Jerry Seinfeld audio clips next week, so look forward to that.
... ack! People can hear the music I'm listening to! My headphones aren't awesome enough... or, I should use both ears. Anyway, Bao is a bit... secretive. Hah, on this blog I'm not being so secretive, but otherwise... well, I'm listening to Freebird now, a badly played freebird, so if anyone asks questions I have to through the motions of explaining what I'm listening to. If I'm listening to a movie, that's also weird. If I'm listening to TATU or some other weird song, I feel like I'm being judged. If I'm listening to Red Hot Chili Peppers, it's probably okay; Britney Spears, maybe not so great - teenagers listen to Britney Spears, not older people. And so on.
Bao separates. I try to keep work and play and, nowadays and since ever, blog separate. With the WOW update, in my mind it was getting a bit... ugly. My arguments were getting weaker, and it felt like people were attacking me, or, were attacking my arguments pretty well, and since most of it was against the arguments/me, it.. whatever. Anyway, in real life though, or on msn, I don't talk about WOW. It's like, the arguments and attacks are isolated to my blog, and I don't want to bring them up in real life because the attacks would be there too, and it just makes for an unpleasant time.
So there's a bit of ignorancy at play. I'm ignoring these arguments on my blog in real life, pretending they just apply to the blog and not in real life, or whatever. Then again, things from real life make it onto the blog.. as it should be... oh well, whatever. Additionally, sometimes my parents ask "what is Ambrose doing? What does Ray do at work?" And apart from "financial economic something" and "project manager", we... don't really know... I guess we don't really talk about it. We sometimes do, but then we don't retain the information. Hmm...
Bao hates some generalizations. I absolutely hate it when for example, Duy is doing something bad, and my dad says "you kids are doing something bad" - they always do that, they generalize all the kids into one lump, so whenever someone does something bad, they blame all the kids, which really makes me angry.
Bao uses some kind of balance system. If Bao eats unhealthy food, Bao feels bad. But if Bao does exercise, then he would say "I have +1 in health" so now I am justifying "-1 in food". It's pretty bad, because then my body stays the same, so it's been happening less but I'd be lying if I said I stopped doing that. Similarly, if my parents are "grounding" us with "you can play only 1 hour a day", then everytime I play 1 hour a day and Duy plays 6 hours a day, I think of me getting +1 on following parents' orders.
And in return? I "expect" that, if I it ever gets to that, I can use it as leverage, and get something good out of it. So if my parents need one of us to vacuum the living room, then hopefully they'll pick him because I have +points. Sometimes I volunteer to do it for additional +points. Anyway, I haven't done much 'tattle-taling' in a while, or ever, but in my mind those +points are still there and they might become necessary in the future.
So am I, like all sibling groups, in the battle for "best child" award? Well, secretly, yes, I am. Unfortunately, I think I have to do something more than get +points by doing chores and playing limited amount of hours... I'm working on it... or am I? bwahahaha...
Bao is decisively tact and tactless. Sometimes I use tact and be nice, sometimes I feel that the use of tact is too flowery and unimportant. I don't usually care much for things like "You can do it" or "Don't worry, I know it'll turn out well in the end", but sometimes I still end up using them, but I still feel they are empty. Also, sometimes I feel that's why I don't care for self-help books. If a book or audio tape just tells me "that I have potential", uhh... yeah, that doesn't help me much.
Bao is... needy. This is one of my faults... deals with clingy, deals with childish, deals with influential bao. I try not to be needy, except when I'm childish, which means I'm angry. Actually, you can almost ignore this point because I said it in my "angry = childish" argument, if you associate needy with childish.
Bao will update in precisely 27 minutes. Okay, Bao likes being precise; some people find it odd. I would note things like, I came into work at 9:57 - instead of 9:55 or 10:00 or something. I just like doing it, it makes things a bit more interesting. Another thing I like to do is tell people that I will be ready in 6 minutes, or 11 minutes, or something. Once again, the preciseness, but more importantly... because it shows I've thought about it, and I'm trying to be truthful.
One of the things I don't like is when people use "5 minutes", "10 minutes", "20 minutes", "30 minutes", things like that. 5 minutes, IS NOT 5 minutes. 5 minutes is a generic answer that means "short", but it can be anywhere between 3 minutes and 30 minutes. 5 minutes is a thoughtless answer, and it has such a wide range that it's pretty meaningless. When I say "6 minutes", it sounds genuine, like I thought about it and it would probably take 5-8 minutes. Nobody has ever said 5 minutes and gotten 5 minutes out of it.
Bao is confusely hypocritical. I'm just writing this here before someone else says it, since I've written a lot of things (in this blog post and previous blog posts) so several points tend to overlap. Maybe I'm ignorant to WOW's combat system, yet I stated that I hate ignorance. That sort of hypocriticism might be found...
Bao wants... out. You know what I always thought about doing? I thought about moving out, for at least a little while. Like how Brian Griffin did, he just packed up and left. I don't think I'll do anything special... I will just live by myself, eat and cook for myself, perhaps meet new people... if I could find a job, that'd be great, but I would also just like to have, like, a 6-month vacation. My mind says I will work out more since I have more time, but... I may or may not have TV or Xbox360... well, I probably would, but I won't have HD channels and all that. I would probably be doing a lot of programming or flash programming during these 6 months... that's what I'd like to do. Right now, with all the pressure to keep going to work, then come home and play games... well, there's not much time for me, me-myself-alone time.
What's keeping me from taking this vacation? Well, pressure of working and all that. Maybe I'll ask my parents about it one day... I wonder what they'll say. They'll probably like the idea of me living alone, not sure if the "doing nothing" thing will work.. I can say I will exercise and find myself and program, but... well, we'll seeee...
And... I guess that's it! FOR NOW.... so, now you and I both know a bunch of my strengths and weaknesses and quirks. And it's been helpful writing things, getting some things into the open, and writing about my faults. However, unlike influential Bao, I didn't learn that much about me when writing this. However, now that I know my faults more, I know what I have* to fix.
have*? Why? Why do I have to fix them? Do I get free candy to fix them? Well, I guess the ideal is that a person is perfect, and in order to move the actual closer to the ideal, a person has to get rid of their weaknesses and negative activities. Logically, a better person would live a better life. And I'd like to live a better life... so... umm... "we'll see".
... I think I just realized something, regarding to "Who Moved My Cheese." David might be moldy cheese.